1984

after turning my room in to what would seem to be a peaceful zen place for me to meditate, and spent some quiet time with the one i love most. i worked out for 34 minutes while watch that 70s show, the felt the need to reenter my room, and write. after getting distracted my what mau just be my new obsession on youtube, i told my self to" knock it off! " cause it's time to blog. i feel like no one reads this, which bums me alittle. i mean i dont expect people to really care, but it would be nice to know im not just typing to a blank world of nothingness filled with people who's lives are so chaotic that they cant just take a second and breath some fresh air and look up at the clouds. on saturday i was reminiscing with a friend about the book 1984 written by george orwell, and i was thinking how true so many of his points where. how many people just live their lives doing what they are told? and who is telling us what to do? the government? a little. society. a bit. but how much of what we live is really in OUR HANDS? from my point of view, and my beliefs as a follower of christ. God gave us life, and gave us free will to do whatever we want in life. and we can choose to live for him. or live for ourself. those tho choose to live for themselves, overtime get in a habit. go to work. eat. read. talk. go home. eat. watch tv. spend some time with the spouse. brush teeth. go to bed. repeat. over all that life seams dreary to me, no point even. but living my life for some one who gave their life FOR me, sound like more of a dreary thing to do. but it never gets old. as my life for hims moves forward, it seams so much more fulfilling than the life i led for my own enjoyment. there's not a dull moment, not a moment with our hope, joy, eternal love, and comfort knowing WHATEVER happens he will take care of me. i thank God for my life. im gonna live it to the fullest. how about you?

child of the king 

Emily

understanding

take time out of your day some time and stare intently at a used up old napkin, think of it's feelings, how hurt it must be. understand that napkin? i sure do. the world is a cruel, but at least a i have a few great friends to pull me thru, with out them.... well i don't know where id be

thank you

love worthless piece of trash girl

a day in the life of a world of chances...

You've got a face for a smile, you know
A shame you waste it
When you're breaking me slowly but Ive

Got a world of chances, for you
I've got a world of chances, for you
I've got a world of chances
Chances that you're burning through

I've got a paper and pen
I go to write a goodbye
And thats when I know I've

Got a world of chances, for you
I've got a world of chances, for you
I've got a world of chances
Chances that you're burning through...

such a true song. Don't you hate it when you give someone so many chances and they just keep repeating the same crime? What can you do? well I find songs :)

God is good,
Taylor

driving under the influence of awesomeness!

though the day started out one day then quickly changed to me have a bad mood for no reason at all, good or bad, suddenly i felt free, independent, light spirited and mature. i felt like i could be on my own and not only survive perfectly but also be happy! it was a wonderful feeling, tho having to drive with my dad to the store just to pick a few things i needed was a bit of downer. i cant want until i can drive all on my own. i've gotten to this point where driving is like all i think about, 3 months ago i couldn't care less about driving and now all i want is the freedom to drive all alone. i wonder why i never got a permit sooner. but im glad i waited. i feel so ready. this feels like the birth of a new Emily, and Emily i want to last for ever. up to who ever reads this to hold me to that at least until the year is out. got that?

A day in the life of...a jesus follower

Only You...
"and I will worship you Lord, Only You Lord
And I will bow down to you Lord only you Lord...
It's just you and me here and now, Only you and me here and now."

God is so good. You never realize how awesome/amazing/fantastic he really is until he hits ya in the face. Now, this is a good beating (haha) because while I was sitting there thinking of what songs to play for the worship night at a friends I felt God say... play this one (only you) and here I am thinking practically, no one knows this song, I barely know it so I ignored the feeling. Then worship time rolled around and I needed something to play, and I needed the confidence to play it alone, sing loud, and lead. I may not have done my best, but to me I did. I over came a confidence fear and just did it. I played the song like three in and it clicked for me, then we did a lesson and each prayed for eachother. This was really powerful for me because you get to hear YOUR PEERS pray. People were so kind and just encouraged me to no end! I felt so lifted and decided that I was supposed to play the song one more time, so I took a leap of faith and did it. It was awesome all the voices flowed together so beautifully and even though we each had our flaws they meshed together and it felt perfect, I could feel the holy spirit running through my vains.
Oh what a night...such a good, good night

Love ya all,
Taylor


JESUS LOVES YOU <3

o the tales of a bored lass

not much is new since my last update,I got a blister after roller skating to much with friends, and laughing as my friends fell down as little kids a 1/3 they're size went rolling by doing al sorts of neat tricks. the blister is worth it though considering all the fun i had. it's a good stress reliever, hanging out with some good friends, you don't really have to say anything just skate, skate all your problems away for the 3 hour that your there. there's this woman at the skate rink, i see her very week. she's a skate dancer, i guess is what you'd call it. she does all these cool tricks, she's and older woman but that doesn't seem to stop all my young guy friends from thinking she's hot stuff. I've never talked to her, but in my mind i know her. that sounds a lot weirder than i meant it. i mean she doesn't seam to care what people think. she puts her whole life towards her hobby, her staking, her life. watching her put so much in to something that brings her so much joy, encourages me.  i really don’t know what else to say, or write.  dont even know what’s going on in my mind. i a buzz, there’s so much going on around me. in my brian and in the room around me. i wish i had one topic.  i wish i was righting strictly about food, or shopping or fashion, something more specific  than just my thoughts. honestly, my thoughts scare me. i don’t know what to think. i don’t know which side of the story is the side i should take. i don’t even know why i’m writting all this. i just don’t know. 

call me a crazy. cause i am. 

                                love crazy MLE

A day in the life of a good friend...

Today I experienced both the highs and the lows of friendship. Have you ever had a friend be honest with you and it just rips you apart, but you try and hold it out? Well it happened to me... It felt as if I was fighting a surprise battle, the oppenent snuck up on me and gave me a hard blow to the ribs that just made me shrink in my boots. Being stabbed in the heart at a surprise that you didn't expect to come. or like food poisoning, it's a surprise that hurts and you expect it to be better after you blow it all out but then there are the after effects and pains. but it was her honest feelings and it's gonna take me along time to absorb all that information and take it in...
On a positive note I hung out at the local skating rink and had a blast, I realized my friends are fun to groove to songs we don't know and get down with our crazy selves and they weren't embarrassed! God has truly blessed me with great friends (and friends mom's (:...you know who u are )
thx guys for the good day
Taylor

ps I will take to heart what you (she) said. ily girly <3